Nemisis vs Accomplishments

Aloha!!! Well today is a new day! Wonder were my adventure will take me today... Yesterday was an awesome day. Drove my furthest! I am almost at my 2nd goal of the week. I make two goals a week. One that I know I will make for sure which is Goal 1. While the 2nd goal is an "I want to make it to there" goal. Sometimes I make it in a matter of days while other times it could take a week or a week 1/2 to make it to the 2nd goal. But it is progress. Baby steps. And as for me it is definitely baby steps.

I am going to share with you some pictures as I LOVE to take pictures and well I take pictures of where I have gone. Keeps me distracted and focused on something other than my fun anxiety! lol

This is was my Nemesis for 31 weeks. Yep the dreaded stop sign. It took me that long to reach it. But when I did my whole world opened up. Well for me my world opened up. I took off after that. I was so happy that day! And ever since then I have been continuing to go further. So far this is my route.

 

The yellow dots are my goals I have accomplished already... the green dot is my next goal. This week's Goal 2! The past 2 days I had pretty high anxiety driving to the 1st goal. Seems to be a little cycle. Right when I am about to get close to my goals I get anxious. It is normal and by the 2nd day it isn't as high. My therapist has me give a number to my anxiety 1-10 (1 being the lowest, 10 being the highest). The days that I am high in my anxiety I am about an 8.5. I try not to get to a 10 because if I do the next day is not one I look forward too at all. It was trial and error before I figured out how to get over that little speed bump. With agoraphobia, anxiety and panic you have to find what works for you. Now mind you my anxiety on a good day probably reaches the highest 7.5. And that's a really good day! LOL. But the anxiety starts to go down. I try to make myself stay in the anxiety until I calm down to about a 5 or until I just can't take it anymore. Which lasts many about 30 seconds to 2 mins. Gradual increase depending on the day I am having.

 

 It is a long road ahead of me yet I am ready for the challenges and the pretty things I will get to see on my way. I have a bunch of pictures that I will share with you throughout the next blog. So far all I am doing is CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy), guided imagery, positive thinking, meditating, and breathing techniques. It is working for me and I am extremely blessed that not only is it working but I am also blessed to have an AMAZING Support System. That is very important in this journey. You have to remove all the negative people and situations around you as best as possible. Life always will bring its challenges but its how your maneuver through those challenges. It is a lot of work to think that way and be positive but eventually it will come as 2nd nature. Just have Faith!