A whirlwind

I would have written more to my title but then that would be one VERY long title. I had an awesome therapy session on Saturday! Which always keeps me grounded. Unfortunately I continued to deal with some drama that drained me out. I was exhausted. I re cooperated Sunday and then Monday hit. Oh the lovely Monday!!! More drama arouse that night. Which I wanted to scream! But I didn't, I settled for crying instead. However through all this I keep on driving some days where better than others.

Yesterday was a panic driving day. A pretty bad one. I usually only get those Super Panic Attacks when I am at home and they are far in between. Maybe twice a year. Any who I got one. It sucked. While panicking in the car I had my hubby drive back home as quick as he could and when we got to the edge of the driveway I just jumped out of the car. I didn't even wait for him to back the car into the driveway. Of course he stopped I didn't jump out of a moving car. LOL. That would really hurt. I ran into the house plopped myself on the bed. And just regrouped. I didn't say anything bad to myself. I just closed my eyes took a deep breath and went back outside to get my stuff. Unfortunately my hubby had already brought everything in so I just took it from him and sat on the bed. It was a differently feeling from how I have normal felt in the past when it came to not having good days. I actually didn't get down on myself. I just thought ok what can I take from this and learn from it. Odd. So I made some mental notes and realized that I had a bad day, big deal I will do better tomorrow. I can only keep doing my best and that's it! Now time to move on forward. Whatever today shall bring it shall bring. I will be ready and do the best that I can do today, not more I can do. And like my therapist likes to say: "Progress NOT Perfection". I love that little sentence. Short, yet extremely powerful. It is true though.

So with that I will continue with my progress. Now time to go do my therapy homework!!!